First Day Blog-Con't

So I wanted to break this into 2 parts as not to ramble on too long. I left off where we were going to tell our families and our kids. So we decided to sit the girls down and tell them about the baby the night before Thanksgiving. I was actually a bit nervous about Jeff's daughters responce would be. I knew my daughter would be thrilled because she's been wanting a bay brother or sister for at least 2 or 3 years now. So as expected, when we delivered the news, little Zoe was excited! The reaction from Jeff's daughter was something neither one of were prepared for. She started crying and they were not tears of joy. We knew this would be difficult for her but we had no idea this would come. We asked to talk to her alone and tried to gauge what she was thinking and feeling. It's a HUGE adjustment and her fears were normal. Basically she was concerned how this would effect her. And then the questions started...."where is the baby gonna sleep?" "do I have to share a room?" "do I have to give up playing sports because of the money the baby will cost?" "why are you having a bay?" "how did this happen?" WOW, we were kinda taken aback and tried the best we could to handle ALL these questions. In the meantime, just as things sort of calmed down my daughter came out of her room and said "Mom, about the baby? I'm thinking it's not such a good idea" So far, this was NOT going like I had planned in my head! lol We told both girls all the good things a baby would bring to our family and tried to get them engaged in the process by asking them to start thinking of names. This seemed to get them excited and they came up with some nice choices.
Next we told out families on Thanksgiving. My mom and step-dad were thrilled (Considering my mom has been wanting me to have another baby for a long time now and I kept telling her "No way!") My siblings were excited and my sister Katy actually thanked me for taking the pressure off of her for a few years:-) Then we told my dad and step-mom, who seemed less than excited by the news but whatever. They will come around I guess. Jeff's family was excited as well and it felt good to have all our families on board until............I really started to FREAK out about everything!
I'm 36 years old for crying out loud! What the hell was I thinking? If Jeff had gotten the vasectomy like we talked about months ago, this wouldn't be happening!!! Where ARE we going to put the baby?? How can we afford this??? Can I go through another miserable pregnancy again??? WHAT ON EARTH ARE WE DOING?????

First Day Blog!

A few weeks ago I was kicking around the idea of documenting my pregnancy day by day. It wasn't so much for the notion of wanting people to read all about me all the time. Instead, I thought it would be a very interesting journey for me to look back on years from now.

So first, a little background info in case anyone is reading. I am 36 and have just reached the 12th week of my pregnancy. I should also add that this pregnancy was a very big SURPRISE to the both of us. I have a 6 1/2 year old daughter named Zoe Ann from my first marriage. She is just about the best kid any parent could ask for. Her father decided he didn't want to be a dad and a husband anymore and pretty much up and left the both of us over 3 years ago now. We manage just fine through the impending "aftermath" and have both come out of it stronger and closer. Thank goodness I met Jeff about a year later who restored my faith in men! Since then, I have been trying to obtain a divorce from her father who remains nowhere to be found. So, if anyone is wondering, this is why Jeff and I are not married. I have come close many times and have attempted to serve him with papers, only to run into dead ends time and time again. I know there are other ways to go about it and am persuing them however I am not made of lawyer money! So Jeff also has a daughter named Zoe', who is 11 and he shares joint custody with her mother. We all live happily together though there have been some bumps on the way. It's always a challenge to blend families together but with communication and some compromise, things can be wonderful!
With that being said, we had pretty much agreed that having a child of our own might complicate things and since neither one of us were getting any younger that we would leave things as they were. Ha, life has a funny way opf telling who is really in charge...LOL I have to admit that when I found out, I freaked out and cried for a good 45 minutes in the bathroom as my mind was flooded with every selfish thought imaginable! I told Jeff the next day and to my shock he was sooooo calm about it and even...happy!?? I was SO busy thinking about all the things that were going to change that I didn't even think about all the good things to come. So there we had it, we were having a baby!!! Holy crap!!
So then we figured out when to tell the family and more importantly the girls about the new baby. I will post that in my next entry as it seems I have rambled on too long already!